When discussing losing weight on a podcast I listen to, Shop Talk
, one of the co-hosts mentioned that people generally recommend a food log, and the other responded: "My whole life is dumb little tasks like this, like I need one more." If that doesn't describe my whole life I don't know what does. That's the stuff I need to find and automate instead of piling more on.
... but seeing them makes me sad that I'm where I am instead of somewhere more beautiful. It's a weird feeling, because I love where I live and it's a vacation destination in its own right, but most days I'm not in the vacation parts of it. I'm in the concrete jungle part of it, and it just doesn't compare. I think I'm feeling a little bit of "the grass is always greener" though. I really do love it here. Thanks for the existential crisis, Microsoft.
... and I hate it. Ugh. I feel sorry for those of you out there who have to go through every day feeling like this.
I don't think that's me. I was reading a job ad and when I read that they wanted someone passionate I imagined myself sitting in an interview and being asked the question, "What are you passionate about?" and I couldn't answer the question. Normally in these imaginary conversations in my head I'm formatting an answer before the question even comes up but today I drew a blank. Am I so jaded that I'm not passionate about anything anymore? I have so many things to do that I don't have time to be passionate about any one thing. I'm trying to put a little time into a lot of things and just break even. Maybe that's why I'm having so much trouble finding a job: I don't have one thing that I love anymore. Fuck. I guess I need to trim down some of the things I'm doing.